June 2nd

I have so many posts swirling around in my head.  I just wish I had time to put them all down here. Work is so busy during the week I hardly have time to get anything else done and then the weekends have been when I do all my catching up with the house and life.  The good news is, however, that after this week I only have 2 weeks left.  Yippee!  I'm so ready for a break.

Despite the busy-ness, I'm popping in with a special post for a special day: June 2nd.  This is a day that will probably forever be etched in my mind for both sad and happy reasons.

The sad- this was a day that initially brought so much hope when we found out we were pregnant for the first time.  The roller coaster of emotions that lead up to that first pregnancy and then the roller coaster of emotions after that pregnancy ended.  I don't think I'll ever forget it.

It's been a year since that due date and I've watched a few people with similar due dates raise their children up and celebrate one-year birthdays now.  It's so strange to think how my life would be different if I had a one-year old.  I don't question God's timing as much with that miscarriage anymore because I see how much I've grown more compassionate and stronger over the past year and over the past year and nine months.  But that doesn't mean I've forgotten. 

One song I love that addresses miscarriage specifically is called "Glory Baby" by Watermark.  If you've lost a child, it's a must listen, but I warn you- it will make you cry.  I love it on so many levels.  Here's just a sample of some of the lyrics:
Heaven will hold you before we do....Heaven will keep you safe until we're home with you.

Let sweet Jesus hold you, until mom and dad can hold you, you'll just have heaven before we do.

Aren't those lyrics perfect?

I also love that the song addresses the emotions....that we miss the child, that we can't wait for the day when we see him/her, that the grief and hurt are there, yet there is hope in the knowledge that God works all things together for our good and He works His purposes.

You can listen to it here.  Have tissues ready.

And the happy- June 2nd is the birthday of our sponsor child.  I wrote more about that here.  We wanted to make something good of the date, so we sponsored a girl with that birthday.  Happy birthday to that special girl from Ethiopia. We pray for her each night, as we would for our own child (if God blesses us with such).

And so today...I look back and remember....and I look forward with hope.....